LONELY

I like being lonely sometimes.But when I m forced to be lonely I literally get killed by my lonely emotions.
LONELINESS haunts me to death or rather kills me.Inspite of all the people I m surrounded by I feel that I m still alone.There is no one to take care of me, no one to LOVE me.It makes me feel weak.I have forgotten to stay happy.I have forgotten what a SMILe is....!!!!!????!!!!
I m LOST.....I m DEAD....I m LONELY......just so LONELY........Can anything or anyone make me HAPPY or make me SMILE????????..........I dont want to be LONELY anymore.Its killing me.I dont want to get killed.I want to LIVE....Can anyone help me LIVE HAPPILY...?????????!!!!!!!

Long Time "BEING SINGLE"!!!

Is it really a shame for me to be 'still single'?Or is it what I m frustrated about?..I am searching for answers for a long time..Sometimes I feel very happy being so single coz I dont have to be bound by committments.Or may be at the end of the day I am not answerable to anyone,which might be the biggest advantage of being single.Am I thinking about this a too much???...I dont have an answer to myself.I am that kind of person who from school life is busy solving my friends love problems rather than thinking about me...Will I EVER fall in LOVE or will I NEVER fall in LOVE???..Being Single Is not wrong and neither it is matter to be so shamful about.
I know may be I have waited or a long time..but its high time for me to get someone special in my life,someone whom I can claim my own,someone perfectly made solely and only for me.But I just need that hint from that person.May be God is just testing me too long and making me prepare for that perfect person or rather MY PERFECT PERSON...!!!!!!!!!!!..who knows what happens next....but I am still waiting...!!!!